The waiting sensation

The anxiousness, nervousness, tension, helplessness, uneasiness, stress, restlessness, edginess, anxiety and worry feeling when you get when you are waiting for something really important can really give you a heart attack. I belief this sensation can be felt when you are in these situations:

1. Waiting for your bonus or increment

2. Waiting for the reply on something important

3. Waiting for the result of your job interview

4. Waiting for the result of your examinations

5. Waiting to enter an interview

6. Waiting for the results of your medical checkup

7. Waiting to see someone important

8. Waiting to see the sex of your baby

9. Waiting for your court case

10. Waiting for information on your loved ones, etc

In these situations, normal people will be anxiously waiting for whatever thing which is important to them. You will lose sleep over these kinds of things. Well some of the experiences I had in these situations are:

a) I think one of the most anxious times I had was when I was waiting for the result of my thesis and my final year examination results. At the same time, I was hoping that I wouldn’t fail any subjects and had to redo another semester, while I was hoping that I get good grades so that I can graduate with my first class honours. I waited and waited and waited everyday…. Logging into my student account for UTM hourly, just to check my results. And, I never got sick of bored from checking every hour… I think I did that for a few weeks until the unofficial results came out. But when the unofficial results came out, I was informed that the university management might change the results if there are any problems with the markings, and that took another couple weeks. The wait was both tiring and stressful. But once the results were confirmed, my sigh of relief, can be heard miles away. Haha… actually the same thing happened with my SPM results as I was waiting for it. Back then, you have to SMS some number to get the results.

b) The second situation was when I am awaiting the reply from a certain someone. It was really tiring thinking what the person will reply me. Sometimes, when I want to have an outing with some friends, waiting for their answer is really stressful, they might say yes or no to you. And when they forget to reply you, it keeps me restless for the rest of the day just to wait for their reply even it’s just a simple reply. There was once, when I messaged a gal for the first time, I messaged at 11 pm, therefore I did not expect her to reply immediately. But even though I knew she probably will not reply me, I was still very restless, waking up every 2 hours just to check my messages. Then the next day was also as tiring and I was in crappy mood because I was just waiting for that one reply. And yet, the reply never came, 12 hours, 14 hours, 24 hours, and then the following day she replied. What a relief. I was so happy it turned my whole day around. After that I became too restless as I was too happy and could not really control myself.

c) The third situation is the information on my yearend bonus and increment. Actually I would normally know the amount of my bonus and increment before I get it from my boss as I have good source. However, once it’s yearend towards the Chinese New Year, everyone in the office is anxiously waiting for news regarding their bonuses and increment. This wait is sometimes quite stressful, as most of my colleagues, me included need the extra money to spend during the Chinese New Year and we would to see whether the boss appreciates us or not by the amount of bonus and increment they award us.

Well these are the few examples I have in my life where I have this really tingling waiting sensation. What’s your???